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It’s a Whirlwind….But Just In Time May 13, 2009

Hello to any of you that still pop by 🙂

Life has been hectic, as I’ve stated before.  Actually, let me restate that.  It’s not so much that life has been hectic, but more that I’ve been more purposeful in what I’m doing, more focused, more dedicated.  I’ve been doing this with every little thing….from how I dust a room to how I parent my children to how I accomplish my work.

I started this focused action because I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching this past year.  You know what?  I still don’t have any great answers.  I don’t think I’ve been set on this planet to change the world.  But I do believe that I’ve been commanded to be the best possible steward to my own little universe.  So I’ve been trying to truly focus my efforts and energy into doing everything to the best standard as often as I can.  In the beginning, it has taken away a lot of my creative energy to meet my standard.  Also, I do find that whenever I start on a journey to create something positive, there is a little resistance from the “universe” at first.  It’s as if the forces-that-be want to make sure that I really want to achieve my goals.  I guess that is why when I have sat down to consider writing a blog post, there has been nothing… no free flowing thought.  I’m assuming that the longer I keep at this focused way of living, the easier it will become and then there will be more creative energy available.

Today I was reading one of my favorite blogs, One Louder.  Heather was discussing her own soul searching and brought up this magazine article
from O Magazine.  It’s author, Martha Beck, had this to say about a concept she calls Just In Time Thinking which focuses on the abundance that truly exists when we have just what we need, when we need it:

“I can’t quite explain this; it often seems nothing short of miraculous. Perhaps this is why the authors of the Bible included the story of the wandering Israelites who were given manna from heaven, but only permitted to gather enough to supply their needs until the next manna-festation. Whether you take it literally or metaphorically, this tale was considered important enough to become holy writ. Why? …. The Israelite story-keepers wanted to remind readers that, miraculous as it seems, just-in-time confidence keeps supply lines clear and prosperity flowing.”

It is a great article (you should read it) that speaks to putting confidence in the abundance we already have in our lives.  I loved the use of the word “manna-festation”  I feel that over the last year, that is exactly what God wants me to understand.  When I trust, my life will manna-fest productivity and abundance.  Gosh, I could write an entire blog on the word manna-fest and how it’s anlaogy could pertain to our lives!  I will have what I need, when I need it, as God wants me to have it.  I’m really going to focus on this for the rest of this coming year.  These are scary times.  I have felt a lot of fear and anxiety on the blogs lately.  A lot of doom and gloom and “end days” line of thinking.  I don’t know that any of that is very helpful.  As our nation continues to struggle through this age, we need to focus on our manna-fest.  We need to trust in our God and in ourselves that we will have what we need when we need it.

In her article, Martha goes on to recommend the following exercise.  I am leaving early tomorrow in the morning for an extended weekend, but when I return, I shall start the following reflections on a regular basis.

1. List 10 times you thought that there wouldn’t be enough of something and you survived.

2. List 10 areas where you have too much, not too little.

3. List 20—or 50, or 1,000—wonderful things that entered your life just at the right time, with no effort on your part. Start with the little things (oxygen, sunlight, a song on the radio).

I can’t wait to feel abundance, productivity, peace, competence and security in deeper, more soulful ways!

Enjoy the day!

-The Mom


Twilight Zone January 30, 2009

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Early this morning or maybe late last night, I couldn’t sleep….or maybe I was half asleep…..or maybe, now that I think about it, I was completely asleep and dreaming all of this…

I don’t know, but I think I took a trip to the TWILIGHT ZONE.

As I lay in bed with my half sleep/full sleep/dream state going, my mind was wrapping itself around not one…….not two…..but three really FANTASTIC post ideas. Oh they were good….I mean really, really good. And….I was so proud of myself for having 3 days worth of posts all formulated in my pretty little noggin. All I was going to have to do was type them into my draft file and push “publish” and I was going to rule the blogosphere for Three. Whole. Days.

Then I woke up, got ready, dealt with the tragedy of the lost lunch box, dealt with the 2nd daily tragedy of the lost North Face, made lunch, breakfast, and snack, and put away the dishes from the dishwasher. I dropped off the carpool at the school….yelled silently at the lady that can’t figure out the stop, drop, and roll concept that is the beauty of the “drop off” lane at school, drove to work and then……the magnificence of the posts? E.VAP.OR.ATE.D. like mist from the clouds.   Poof.  Gone.   I can remember one title.  That’s it.   Just one.  Just one title.

My ruling of the blogosphere was so fast and furious that I bet you didn’t even know I was queen, did you?

That’s my reality.  Right there in a nutshell.

-The Mom


Water, Water Everywhere November 13, 2008

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It has been raining all week here in the Pacific Northwest.  No surprise there, I guess.  But Soul Coaching Water Week has really swept in.  Today our goal is to “do nothing”.  I guess I’ve been practicing this for the past couple of days.  Something about all the rain took me from the great highs of last week and diluted them.  I am feeling water logged. 

Once again, I decided to move towards something and then felt the universe push back against me.  I came up with my personal mission statement.  When I finish writing it, I was excited to begin each day with purposeful energy.  Instead, every morning this past week I have awoken feeling like I hadn’t slept long enough or well enough.  I know that this is just my own inner resistance.  Do I really want this mission?  What happens if I don’t live up to it and nothing changes?  I also know that I do just need to see past those doubtful thoughts and keep my eye on the goal.  I saw through last week’s experiences that intention will bring result. 

So, I’m pushing through.  I’m not floating like I was during Air week.  I am swimming against the tide.  But I will see you on the other side of this big puddle! 

-The Mom


Universe Say Wha? November 4, 2008

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I always find it interesting that the very moment I decide to dedicate myself to something that takes discipline, the universe really tries to stand in my way.  It never fails. When I’m trying to take on a new excercise program or a committee leadership position or what have you, everything possible to upset my ability to succeed will crop up.  Case in point…..

I committed to participate in Soul Coaching.  I did this for me.  You see, tomorrow I turn 40.  For the past couple of years, most especially the last year, I have been struggling with my direction.  I have questioned myself a ton and lost a certain amount of confidence.  Never before in my life have I felt this way.  When I found the blog for the Soul Coaching journey, I thought maybe this would be good for me.  It started on November 1, the first day of the first month of my 40th year.  I thought maybe this process would help me clear my mind and find my focus.  I didn’t find out about it until right before the month started but I bought my book and got ramped up for starting the discovery of what was lurking around in my soul.

Then, the Universe said “WHA?”  You don’t get to do something for you!  Want proof?  Let me show you! 

The Ex will decide to forfeit his weeking with the Girls.  Yes, the weekend that I thought I could be quiet and meditate and start my journey.  It was a most dramatic weekend that required a lot of hand holding, snuggling with broken hearts on the couch, and trips into the City to take our minds to something better.  OK. 

Just a couple of days behind now on Monday.  So, tonight I will hunker down and catch up.  Universe say “WHA?”  Let me show you….the dog will cut its paw, bleed all over the new carpet, all over the car, all over the animal hospital’s waiting area.  Dinner will burn in the oven and you’ll come home exhausted, stressed, and needing the comfort of a lovely glass of red which will then put you to sleep on the couch instead of searching your soul.  HA! AND we’ll throw in a pinch of more family drama from the Ex, just for good measure.

I am determined to catch up to the rest of the group at Soul Coaching.  I’m sorry for dragging behind.  I will bring up the rear though!  No matter how loud the Universe yells.  I’m gonna yell back “Oh No You Di-int!”

-The Mom