What a wonderful weekend…quiet, relaxing, bonding…just perfect. I listened to the waves of Puget Sound roll against the shore and closed my eyes and lifted my face to feel the misty raindrops falling. I was surrounded by water! It was refreshing and cleansing and grounding.
When I got back home in my mailbox was a late birthday card from my favorite aunt. In it she wrote “women have a very specific kind of courage that enables them to fling themselves into the open sea”. How amazing was that on our first day of Water week?! Her sentiment mirrored what I have been finding in my own heart lately. Courage and Bravery and Risk and Endless Possibility.
Today in Soul Coaching we were asked to examine the turning points of our lives and what kinds of emotions we associate with those times. Here are a few of mine:
- My family’s move from Illinois to California when I was 10
- Spending a summer as an exchange student in Ecuador
- Putting myself through college
- Getting divorced
Each of those times, and the other turning points that I haven’t mentioned, took courage and bravery and risk. They also involved many different emotions. I notice a pattern however of aloneness. Is that a word? Not loneliness…Alone-ness. The two seem different to me. I don’t know how I feel about that. Was I alone because I didn’t want to let anyone in? Do I just thrive off independence? I notice that I’m not super connected to my community and my community often changes. I tend to maintain a very small group of loved ones. This is something I will have to continue to think about.
On a positive side, my mission statement is beginning to form:
My purpose is to strive to be the best that I can be in every moment (that doesn’t mean perfect, just the best I can be right then). To live each day with intent and do everything with purpose. To create an environment for my daughters and myself that is stable, positive, and centered. To always seek that feminine courage that allows me to fling myself to the open sea. To love with an open and accepting heart.
It’s a start anyway!