Well now, after the heaviness of my last post, I need to take in a deep breath and just have a big ole belly laugh! BWAAHHHBWAAAHH!
Much better! I told you….there are some heavy thoughts running circles in my little pea brain (not much room in there I guess). When I started this blog it was for my daughter and I to communicate some of those things that divorced families go through. We haven’t done a TON of that because, although I think it is good for us to do, The Daughter and I are still careful about what we share. FYI….anything I share here is something that she and I have already discussed in some fashion.
There are tons of families out there that face the hardships of making a new identity for themselves after a divorce. I would like this to be a place where kids or moms or dads could know that they are not suffering through their process by themselves. And that everyone in the family has their own perspective and their own hurts, worries, concerns.
People sometimes raise their eyebrows at me over the fact that I include The Daughter in this discussion. Here’s the thing, when I was 14 my parents divorced. My mom and dad were very tight lipped about everything, just like they were told to be. I understand the need for a lot of that, I do. However, It was also very confusing to us kids as to why there was so much tension and frustration and why our parents couldn’t even tolerate being in the same room anymore and on and on and on.
I’ve chosen a more open, but careful, dialogue with The Daughter. Part of that is based on my experience, part of that is based on her overly mature personality. It might not be everyone’s cup of tea, but it is working for us. It’s important for kids to understand that their parents are people too. And you know what? Divorce hurts. It hurts everyone. Even Mommy. Even Daddy. And you know what? It’s okay to hurt. It’s not fun, but it’s part of life and we need to learn how to get through it. It would have been helpful to me to understand that when I was going through it as a kid.
That being said…part of being ok is not dwelling on the tough stuff all the time. So sometimes I want this to be a space just to talk about life, show pictures and silly videos, and meet and communicate with new friends.
In that vain…..
The other day I finished my taxes and got them filed….yeah for me and for tax returns! My own little economic stimulus package! I also filed away all of the end of the year paperwork. There is something very satisfying for me in that. I love tidy little piles and things buttoned up tight and clean. I feel that the hardships of 2008 are behind me and the goodness of 2009 is only waiting to happen.
Enjoy the DAY!